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pop songs…stuck…

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I find myself humming a lot of pop music the last week or so. It’s kind of driving me crazy. I’m doing this show currently at Peace College called THEmisanthrope and so I have had to sift through a lot of pop music that …. well lets just say I would normally not listen to.

So basically there is constant G105 play list in my head right now. Last night I felt a need to listen to my Jimmy Eat World - Futures album from front to back to get past this pop epidemic that I am currently in. [Hence the reason for last nights post.]

23 is a very reflective song to me. It’s not the song thats on every play list I make. I love the song don’t get me wrong, but it seems to be reserved for only certain times.

My life has been very reflective the past few weeks. Even this re-birth of pop music has stirred up memories of my friend Johnathan and I singing along to all the tunes Q94 growing up, but the line:

I won’t always love what I’ll never have
I won’t always live in my regrets

They strike this cord in me. They remind me of times when my life wasn’t where it was suppose to be. 23… what a year.

But enough reflecting, I appreciate pop songs for their amazing ability to catch you with their cleverly written hooks, but to me… music is more than just about a hook, cause you can have the best hook in the world but if your melody and composition suck, then your left with just… catchy words.

tithing

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Do you know a church like this?

love wins…

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My friend Hugh made a video about his work in Raleigh. [check it out]

whats wrong with the c-word…

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As of about a month ago…I stopped calling myself a, dare I say…”Christian.” You may be wondering… is Jeremy renouncing God and going straight to hell…

Renouncing God… no… the hell part.. not so sure about…

I just feel like God and “Christianity” don’t go hand in hand and the things that we learn about in “church” we don’t live out in all honesty… making us… hypocrites. I have only really had anything to do with one church in the last 2 years so this isn’t a cut at Vintage21, but Vintage is all I really know in terms of church these days…

One example of this… I love the homeless. I am the first to say… I don’t do nearly enough when it comes to helping them… giving some guy a dollar when he needs it doesn’t give me some sort of high… I’m pretty poor myself and I probably owe that dollar to someone (aka American Express)…I do it because I hope that I can make that persons day a little less shittier than it was before… But I am not at a point in my life where I can emotionally give the way my friend Hugh does..

He is in Moore’s Square every day hanging out with them, getting to know them, listening to their stories, dealing with their problems….crying with them… when they contract HIV… I don’t say all this to build up… Hugh or even myself… I just want “Christians” to realize… that People don’t need or want to hear about “their sins” and how they should be saved… they just need a little love…

Vintage21 used to have a few people that thanklessly got up early and served the guys at Labor Ready breakfast… it was a beautiful thing… I used to talk with some of the Labor Ready Works pretty frequently … and they all told me how much it meant to them to have the people at V21 look after them like that…

Were we really looking after them thou… I mean I know I was guilty of being at the building when someone needed to use the restroom or a phone and I would act like no one was there… or wouldn’t come to the door when they knocked… (We’ve all done that at some point)

For what… cause I didn’t want the hastle… I’d rather let… someone walk half a mile to take a piss just so I’m not inconvienced…

We need to wake up… and discover what Jesus was really talking about… cause I don’t think it was… “For the wages of Sin is Death…”

CNN has a great article about Donald Miller that I just read… I think he is a pretty snazzy dude.. If you haven’t read any of his books… you should. They are pretty heartfelt and honest about his struggles with “Christianity” and even being a “Christan” author. A lot of what he says hits home with some of the issues I have myself with the so called “Christan Faith.” (read article).

thoughts…

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“I have found the paradox, that if you love
until it hurts, there can be no more hurt,
only more love.”
- Mother Theresa

This quote really hit home this morning when I read it on my good friends email.  I don’t think I had ever really taken the time to look at it until now.  I knew he had a quote from Mother Theresa as his signature.  Maybe today was the day I finally needed to read that…